I’m not feeling particularly inspired to write right now. It’s funny, I was thinking last night. My mind was wandering all over the place. I probably had a half a dozen ideas of things I thought would be good to write about. For some reason as I’m trying to sleep my thoughts frequently kick into overdrive and prevent me from attaining the rest I so desire at the time. I actually thought about this a little bit last night. I’m happy I just remembered that thread of thought to give me something to write about now.
I don’t know what it is about night-time or bed-time or even more lucid times, but my mind has a way of running in a lot of different directions all competing for processing power at the more or less the same time. I can go from thinking about some conversation I may have had earlier that day that made me upset for some reason into thinking about some cryptic religious topic and then as soon as that starts to go somewhere I’m off wondering why I can’t keep my attention on any one topic for very long. I do know that Ive been diagnosed with attention deficit disorder (ADD). It seems a fairly common pathology, and I’m not worried about anyone knowing as much. Heh, I can’t imagine anyone will ever take the time to read this screed anyway.
When I was a kid things like ADD either weren’t known or so little known it hadn’t filtered down to the the salt of the earth type people yet. You know, the non-rich. I wouldn’t be surprised if the rich have had access to this knowledge a long time before us common folk. I imagine that, at least, the surface knowledge of things like ADD, for example, is now pretty much common knowledge to the average person in the civilization and society of well developed cultures. Where in less developed cultures where things we take for granted are a struggle, I’d be surprised if even many of the cultural leaders are aware of such things. Don’t get me wrong please. I’m sure that even in the most impoverished societies on this planet have many well educated and even brilliant people. I just doubt that the benefits and knowledge possessed by those fortunate few are even available to the majority of their society either by design or simple poverty of resources and ability to educate. Then there is the simple willingness to want to learn about new things like mental health that I’m sure is lacking in large part of the human race anyway. If they can’t eat it, F**k it or piss on it I’m afraid the average person simply doesn’t care.
So these are the kinds of things that swirl through my thoughts most nights. Most of the time it is just idle curiosity that has my attention. Occasionally I have some kind of deeper more profound thoughts, at least they seem that way to me at the time. But as I’m in bed trying to get some sleep so I don’t fall asleep at work, I usually just file whatever it was away in my mind and tell myself to do something with it tomorrow. But it never seems to work that way. Most of the time I forgot that I even had something I thought was important. Occasionally I remember and put it to use in some way or another, like adjusting my schedule or writing something down. But a lot of the time it is simply gone, vanished in the ethereal fog of my mind. And that’s okay, because it has to be, or what’s the consequences. After all what are the odds that anything someone like me could imagine would end up being worthwhile. Even If I imagined a solution to resolve conflict in the middle east no one would listen to me anyway.
I really like this picture of Anna Ruby falls. I don’t have a lot to say about it right now. I spent my energy rambling about random thoughts that no one will ever care about. It’s so strange that when I want to say or write something about something in particular, like this or any of my other photos, I simply can’t think of much to say about it. I guess whatever I wanted to say is in the image itself, and doesn’t need much explanation. At least that is the hope.
